Only The Beginning...

It's only the beginning for this tiny bundle of joy I held in my hands this afternoon. Working in the neo-natal unit has it's perks. I love sitting in the rocking chair in the nursery, holding and feeding the precious newborns. A tiny baby girl was found in an abandoned building this morning. She was brought to us only a few hours after her birth. The tiny caucasian baby weighed only five pounds, and was eighteen inches long. Her little eyes are big and brown, and so beautiful. As I rocked her, I couldn't imagine how someone could give up such a treasure. The most perfect creation, a life. I cradled her closer, wanting her to know she was loved, even if only for the moment that she was in my arms. If I had been the one to find her, I don't know that I would've turned her in. After holding her, I could never have given her up. I know it's only a matter of time before she becomes a ward to the state. My heart breaks seeing this- I love children, and would love to have one of my own. I have to wait patiently for my turn- more importantly for the man to love me, and care for me- to be the father of my children.

Damn phone- it always interrupts my thoughts- although tonight, it was a blessing. Well, until I realized that there was no one there. They didn't hang up, they just listened as I said "Hello" over and over. I was the first to hang up. I haven't gotten one of those calls in sometime. I suppose I should invest in caller id- do you think?