The Breathless Fantasy...

There's A Fine Line Between Fantasy And Reality... I'm Dancing On That Line

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My heart guides me, but my mind always finds me..... "I could be in the street, I could be on a train, Or struck in some doorway down, In the pouring rain, Now there is not one place, That doesn't feel like home...."

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Now That I'm Relatively Calm...

I can better explain things. After I finished my cigarette break, I knew I had to "freshen up" and go back to work. As much as I absolutely dreaded having to go back in and face Bobby, it had to be done. I washed my hands, put on a spritz of Addict, to cover the smell of smoke, and headed back in to check on my other patients. Thank goodness, "Ted" was needing help with his afternoon snack. I sat with him for a good twenty minutes. "Ted" doesn't typically communicate with me. I've tried so hard to reach him, to have him open up to me. I haven't given up on him, nor will I, but for now, he's just stuck in neutral. After making sure he was full and comfortable, I went to check on "Emma". He son had just left. "Thank goodness!", I thought to myself. I have no idea what I would've said to him this time.

"Emma" was delighted I met her son. She made me sit down and talk to her about him. She begged me to tell her how I met him, and had no idea how I didn't know she was his mother. I was forced to tell her the truth. I wouldn't let her heart be broken by thinking her son was ashamed to say where his mother was, especially since I'm now working for Carmel Ridge. I explained the entire story. How I met him almost two months ago at 515. We'd chatted a few times, and shared a few dances. The last time I spoke with him, I was still working at hospital. I hadn't transferred to Carmel Ridge until a month ago. She held my hand, and told me she was so glad I met him. She'd been telling him all about how much she loved me, and was glad I was her nurse. I sat there praying she hadn't been telling him the same things she'd told me- the "I wish you would marry "my Bobby", he needs a nice girl like you to take care of him". Oh God, if she has, he'll think I've put her up to that- and I had NO IDEA "her Bobby" is in fact "my Bobby".

Looking back, I suppose I should've put two and two together. I knew "my Bobby" was a detective, in his 40's, never married, very kind and courteous. Her "baby Bobby", was a detective, in his 40's, never married, kind, courteous, and concerned for his mother. I must be the biggest idiot alive!!! How did I not put the pieces together? Oh well, now I know. Honestly, I'm glad. He's a good man, I knew that from the moment I saw him. He's not like most men I've met. He's a good person. He loves his mother and cares for her the best way he knows how. I have a lot of respect for him. Knowing he's "Emma's" son, I will most likely see him again. I suppose I'll have to remember to be looking my best on sundays- no late saturday nights out on the town for me! Chloe' what have you gotten yourself into now?!?!

5 Comments:

Blogger Amey said...

Well that's a coincidence if I ever heard one.

Well... Coincidence? Or... fate?

*raises one eyebrow and looks mysterious*

10:54 PM  
Blogger Chloe' Gardner said...

*Looking back with the "deer caught in a headlights look"*

Let's hope for "fate" ;0)

11:55 PM  
Blogger mrsbg said...

.......... hmmmmmmmmm

4:56 AM  
Blogger VDOFan said...

Well damn. some chicks just have all the friggin luck :) LOL bastids.. LOL

hugs and God bless Janice

4:11 PM  
Blogger Prairie Doug said...

Chances are he has already thought what you hope Emma did'nt tell him.
He would be insane and no man if he did'nt. Hope everything works out for the best. God Bless You

6:35 PM  

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