Now That I'm Relatively Calm...

I can better explain things. After I finished my cigarette break, I knew I had to "freshen up" and go back to work. As much as I absolutely dreaded having to go back in and face Bobby, it had to be done. I washed my hands, put on a spritz of Addict, to cover the smell of smoke, and headed back in to check on my other patients. Thank goodness, "Ted" was needing help with his afternoon snack. I sat with him for a good twenty minutes. "Ted" doesn't typically communicate with me. I've tried so hard to reach him, to have him open up to me. I haven't given up on him, nor will I, but for now, he's just stuck in neutral. After making sure he was full and comfortable, I went to check on "Emma". He son had just left. "Thank goodness!", I thought to myself. I have no idea what I would've said to him this time.

"Emma" was delighted I met her son. She made me sit down and talk to her about him. She begged me to tell her how I met him, and had no idea how I didn't know she was his mother. I was forced to tell her the truth. I wouldn't let her heart be broken by thinking her son was ashamed to say where his mother was, especially since I'm now working for Carmel Ridge. I explained the entire story. How I met him almost two months ago at 515. We'd chatted a few times, and shared a few dances. The last time I spoke with him, I was still working at hospital. I hadn't transferred to Carmel Ridge until a month ago. She held my hand, and told me she was so glad I met him. She'd been telling him all about how much she loved me, and was glad I was her nurse. I sat there praying she hadn't been telling him the same things she'd told me- the "I wish you would marry "my Bobby", he needs a nice girl like you to take care of him". Oh God, if she has, he'll think I've put her up to that- and I had NO IDEA "her Bobby" is in fact "my Bobby".

Looking back, I suppose I should've put two and two together. I knew "my Bobby" was a detective, in his 40's, never married, very kind and courteous. Her "baby Bobby", was a detective, in his 40's, never married, kind, courteous, and concerned for his mother. I must be the biggest idiot alive!!! How did I not put the pieces together? Oh well, now I know. Honestly, I'm glad. He's a good man, I knew that from the moment I saw him. He's not like most men I've met. He's a good person. He loves his mother and cares for her the best way he knows how. I have a lot of respect for him. Knowing he's "Emma's" son, I will most likely see him again. I suppose I'll have to remember to be looking my best on sundays- no late saturday nights out on the town for me! Chloe' what have you gotten yourself into now?!?!