Waking Up...

Was hard to do this morning... Well, afternoon I should say. I worked graveyard last night for Tracey. Her little boy is sick, and she couldn't bear the thoughts of leaving him. I understand. Even though I'm not a parent, I can remember the comfort of knowing if I needed my parents, they were right across the hall from me. Knowing that made me feel better, even when I was so sick I thought I was going to die. "Emma" was surprised to see me, but very happy that I would be there for dinner with her. This time of year is hard on her. She rarely talks about her late husband.

He couldn't deal with her illness, and his addictions soon overwhelmed him. She was left brokenhearted with two young boys to raise. Two boys who blamed her for their father leaving. Even though Bobby has long since forgiven "Emma", realizing the truth of the matter, I know that haunts her memories. She loved that man. As horrible as he treated her, she loved him. She was faithful, and as good of a wife as she knew how to be. Maybe that's what made her finally snap. I don't know. What I do know, is now, for the first time, in a long time, she's happy. She loves her son, and she loves me. I'm glad to be providing care for her. I'm glad that I'm able to sit and talk to her, and listen. Listening is so important.

By the time I got home this morning I was exhausted. I don't even remember taking my shower and getting into bed. I slept so hard. It's been a long time since I've worked graveyard, and it gets my body all messed up. I was awakened around 1:00pm by the phone ringing. Disgruntled, thinking it had better not be a telemarketer disrupting my beauty sleep. I rolled over, sleepily answering the phone. "Chloe'", a familiar voice said unsure. It was Bobby. I couldn't believe I was answering the phone sounding like I was half dead. I explained to him I had just woken up after working graveyard last night. He apologized, thinking he woke me up. Well, he did, but I'd never tell him that. He just wanted to check in with me, see how I was doing. Even though I was still half asleep, I was thrilled that he called.

After his phone call, there was no way I was going back to sleep. I was wired. I really needed to get up. Susan and Ethan are coming over tonight for dinner, which means Maria and Cody will probably show up as well. I never thought I'd see the day my friends turned into "old married couples" before even getting married. It's happened. I'm still in shock. Now that I think about it, I probably should've invited Bobby over for dinner this evening. At least if he were here I wouldn't be the odd woman out, even if I'm not in a relationship with him, at least I wouldn't be alone. Oh well.