Things Are Looking Up....

After sitting by myself for awhile, I decided to give Bobby a call. I figured, if he could call just to check on me, I could invite him to dinner. Unfortunately, he's been sick, and didn't want to expose everyone, so he asked if we could get together tonight. He asked me on a date. A REAL date. Not just some, "I'm having friends over for dinner, would you like to join us"- but a REAL DATE. I nearly passed out! Of course I accepted. I couldn't believe my luck! Susan and Maria are so excited for me. I guess that's why after I invited them to dinner, Susan ended up cooking most of it. Gourmet Chef, heh. She was just afraid to eat what I'd been cooking after that phone call!

I can't believe he's finally coming around. After close to three months of wishing and hoping, something is finally happening. It's never taken me this long to make a "connection" with a man. Bobby, he's not just any man though. I can tell he's slightly apprehensive about me. I'm sure it's my age. There's quite a few years between us. I'm sure that's crossed his mind on more than one occasion. I might only be 27, but from the life I've lived, I should be much older. It's often been said "age is nothing but a number". On more than one occasion, I've found that to be such a true statement. I've known men Bobby's age who are less mature than 16 year olds, and men my age who are more mature than most 50 year olds. It's a person by person basis.

I know he's a detective, and his first instinct is to keep his guard up. I'm sure he's probably been hurt in the past. He's in his 40's and not married. There's a reason for that. I understand, part of it is his job. Being married to a police officer, much less a detective is hard. I saw that first hand growing up. The patience my mother had when my father had to leave family dinners and functions- the long hours and infrequency of a "normal life". How well I understand. I'm glad at the very least he's giving me a chance. Just wait Bobby Goren, I'm going to change your life...