I'm Just Not Feeling The Love...

With going out tonight... I've already had one "winning" night out this week, and I sure don't want to have a repeat performance. I know what they're gonna say, "Let's go to 515- don't even think about seeing Bobby, we'll have a good time". Yes, they will have a good time, but me.... It's been exactly one month ago since we first met. I remember the look in his dark brown eyes, he haunts me. I wish I could forget all about him, but... I can't. And now, I'm left running. I don't want to put myself in a position to where I have to see him. I don't want to feel his arms holding me while we dance, only to have him leave me at the end of the night. Leave me, and never call. Nothing. As much as I don't want to see him, I'll end up giving in to Susan and Maria. They always have a way of making sure I do what they want. Pray I don't see him tonight, I don't think I'm strong enough to hold it together as of now...