Clearer...

After a good night's sleep, my mind is always more clear. I've let my grief and the stress of life cloud my judgment. I feel really badly for jumping to conclusions and assuming. Yes, I made an ass of myself. I'm thankful to Nikia for putting my ass in it's rightful place, and bringing me back down to earth. I'm not God's gift to men. Men aren't just going to fall at my feet and worship me. I can't just sit pretty and expect to get what I want. I have to take initiative- and that will be done.

I need to get ready for Mass. I love going to church, but even more so during Advent. I love the greenery and all of the ponsiettas in the church, it's so festive and makes everything come to life. Church will be harder for me today. I've been thinking of Verna. I know her funeral is today, and I wish I was there. I know she can hear me, and I know she knows I love her- that's all that really matters.