The Breathless Fantasy...

There's A Fine Line Between Fantasy And Reality... I'm Dancing On That Line

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My heart guides me, but my mind always finds me..... "I could be in the street, I could be on a train, Or struck in some doorway down, In the pouring rain, Now there is not one place, That doesn't feel like home...."

Thursday, February 16, 2006

I Eat Trolls For Breakfast...

Just thought I'd make that abundantly clear...

PS: Had a great Valentine's, watched Bridget Jones' Diary, had a party for myself, and enjoyed the beautiful bouquet of flowers Chuck and Brad sent to me. Being alone can be fun, even if you don't remember a lot of it. I've always said, if you can't be with the one you love, then love the one you're with- and well, I do love myself! ;0)

Monday, February 13, 2006

The Day All Spinsters Dread...


Is quickly approaching us. I've already had the "desperate" phone calls from the ex's who just didn't want to be alone, or at the very least, needed a "trophy" to show off tomorrow night. Of course, Chuck was the first caller. He used the "it's been awhile", line to try to get me to agree to a nice dinner and some dancing. Damn him. It's been so long since I've been to dinner and dancing. I must admit, I was tempted, even if it was Chuck. Don't worry, I declined. I had a couple of calls from some doctors I had dated briefly from the city a long time ago.

Tell me, why does Valentine's day bring out the most insecure, desperate emotions in so many people? It's just a day. That's it. A day. Society puts so much emphasis on Valentine's Day, that all of us singleton's are made to feel like shit because we're alone- even when it's by CHOICE. Sure, I could be with someone right now, but I'm CHOOSING to be alone. I'm choosing to pull a "Bridget Jones" tomorrow night by drinking a bottle of wine myself, smoking a pack of cigarettes and singing "All By Myself" in my sheep pajamas!

Sure, my ideal night would be going out and having a drink with Bobby, enjoying a few dances, just having a good time. Nothing more that what it is, we're friends. Bobby's one of my dearest friends, and one I miss terribly. Sure, there's still a flame burning deep inside for him, but it's held way down in the deepest crevice of my heart- it would take a lot to get that back to the surface again. So, for now, we are what we are. I know he's been buried in a case lately, so I'm sure even if I did pick up the phone to ask him for a drink, he wouldn't be able to pull himself away from the file long enough to have a good time, but who knows. I'm still seeing a "Bridget Jones" night in my future!

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Take The Time...

Sorry it's been awhile since I've posted... You know how it goes, sometimes you just get "stuck" in life, that everyday joys become a task. After I recieved this from a friend, it reminded me to get back to things that really matter... even when life seems to get in the way. Enjoy.

Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine.

I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible.

How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word "refrigeration" mean nothing to you?

How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television?

I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, "How about going to lunch in a half hour?" She would gas up and stammer, "I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, It looks like rain." And my personal favorite: "It's Monday." .She died a few years ago. We never did have lunch together.

Because Americans cram so much into their lives, we tend to schedule our headaches.. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect!

We'll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Steve toilet-trained We'll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet. We'll go on a second honeymoon when we get two more kids out of college.

Life has a way of accelerating as we get older. The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of "I'm going to," "I plan on," and "Someday, when things are settled down a bit."

When anyone calls my 'seize the moment' friend, she is open to adventure and available for trips. She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious. You talk with her for five minutes, and you're ready to trade your bad feet for a pair of Rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee cord.

My lips have not touched ice cream in 10 years. I love ice cream. It's just that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and eliminate the digestive process. The other day, I stopped the car and bought a triple-decker. If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died happy.

Now...go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to......not something on your SHOULD DO list. If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight or gazed at the sun into the fading night? Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask "How are you?" Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head? Ever told your child, "We'll do it tomorrow." And in your haste, not see his sorrow? Ever lost touch? Let a good friendship die? Just call to say "Hi"?

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.... Life is not a race Take it slower. Hear the music, before the song is over.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Llama Love...

LONDON (Reuters) - Stuck for romantic inspiration with Valentine's Day just a week away?

Then consider llamas.

A charity with the slogan "get calmer with a llama" is offering romantic country strolls for the lovelorn, leading a llama together around the picturesque Lake District in northwestern England.

"Chatting over a llama is certainly a novel way to meet people in a relaxed environment, and participants can enjoy a romantic picnic afterwards -- carried by the ever obliging llamas in their backpacks," said owner Mary Walker.

Walker, whose Lakeland Llamas charity helps the disabled, is keen to assure lonely hearts that contrary to their bad press, the South American relatives of the camel do not habitually spit at or bite people but are in fact friendly and docile.

Anyone interested can click on www.lakelandllamatreks.co.uk



Now- for the biggest laugh of all- see THIS link!

Blogger Ate My Post...

Yes, I had typed up a nice, long, detailed post... and it became the victim of an angry blogger... So this is all you get for now... Until I calm myself enough to rewrite it...

Friday, February 03, 2006

It's Been Awhile...

Since I've posted a real post. I've gone out almost every night, and had to work every day. There hasn't been a lot of "Chloe'" time. I've been really happy for once. I've needed to regain the magic that I felt when I first moved to New York nearly four years ago. Last night, I went ice skating with some of the nurses from Carmel Ridge. Let me tell you, that was a sight to see! Being born and raised in Tennessee, ice skating isn't something we got to do much of- well, because, we just didn't get the kind of snow that New York gets. With this being said, imagine a clumsy southern girl on ice skates with her friends who've been skating all their lives. It was definitely a "America's Funniest Videos" moment. I have a nice bruise in the shape of ice skate blade on my thigh, and a VERY sore butt!!!

On tuesday, after ballet, I rushed to get ready for curtain call. Maria scored the leading role in "All This, And Heaven Too!", which happens to be one of my FAVORITE stories. Seeing her acting it out took my breath away. Watching a play, captivates me. I become part of the story with the actors and actresses. I always look forward to seeing Maria perform. I know it's only a matter of time until she makes it to Broadway.

That's just a fraction of what I've had going on recently. Staying busy has really helped keep me focused on me, and not Chuck or Bobby. Chuck is still calling, but thankfully not as much. Maybe he's found someone new to harass. We can always hope. As for Bobby. He's. Well. He's Bobby. What can I say? I miss him. That's for sure. We still talk, but not like we used to- I'd really like that to change, and am going to work on that... We'll see what happens.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Taking A Breather...

Men See You As Desirable

Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual
You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in
You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage
Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily


Your Love Quote

Love makes the wildest spirit tame, and the tamest spirit wild.


You Are Sophisticated Sexy

You're a classy woman, and you carry yourself with grace.
Most men are in awe of you, and even a bit intimidated by you.
You always make sure you're looking great, from head to toe.
And your charm and wit gets you on the good side of everyone you meet.




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